Way back 2011, I started my blog as glorkade.blogspot.com. Before, my purpose of making this blog is to show the virtual world my friendships. :) GLORKADE stands as Gleenar, Lavenia, O'marie, Renalyn, Khimbyrlee (that's me), Anna Rose, Dahlia and Emily. They were my high school classmates turned barkada.

It was supposed to be a blog all about our frienship. But when we went college, things fall apart (easily). We got into different colleges. We began to have our own circle of friends and we seldom met (except for Me, Dahlia and Emily). We were the closest.

Things changed. And this blog served no purpose for our "friendship". So, I changed this blog into my own virtual diary. And I named it as theworldofupsdowns.blogspot.com. It just popped in my mind to name it that way. Because life really is full of ups and down.

I guess it bore the name for almost 2 years (I think).  And I was dissatisfied of the name. (Yep, my taste changes from time to time and I am easily fed up of things). And for the love of the word "world" (also to represent that it is my mine, my world), I changed it into somewhereinthiscosmo.blogspot.com. My younger sister helped me create that name.

Somewhereinthiscosmo blog name served me for a year and something. Along with it, I changed the whole outlook of the blog. From the dark look to a minimalist look. Then, I was fed up with things (AGAIN). And the idea of having my own domain name popped in my mind. I began to think of another name with my name on it. I was also planning to change from Blogger platform to Wordpress because of these reasons. (Your thought, please?)

I got a lot of ideas on my mind with my name on. There's khimediclife (comedic life it should be). But my life is not a comedy. So, I crossed it out on my list. Then, there's khimtherealcosmo (ethereal cosmo). I kinda liked it because it sounded magical. But, no. Kinda girly and I think it will weary out on me quickly. So many on my list. But, I voted to myself on a name that I think suits me best. 

And viola!

KHIMSICALJOURNEY.BLOGSPOT.COM is the name I chose. (It will be khimsicaljourney.com if I will have my own domain.)

  khimsical for whimsical. Not musical. Not classical. Whimsical. I changed 'w' to 'k' to make it whimsical. :D It describe my personality as a whole. I am oddly weird in an amusing way. :D Then, I partnered it with journey. A journey of my whims in life...... And I love being random. :D :D :D 

I think I'm gonna keep this name for life (maybe). :)

You? How did you came up with your name? :D 

November is fast approaching but before we end the month of October, it's TRICK or TREAT! Yey! And this is my first time to join this event (after 22 years of existence). 

Yesterday, IBM celebrated Fright Friday. We decorated our workstation in relation to the event (sorry, no pictures was taken). And we had a TRICK OR TREAT event for the kids. :) The program was just for kids but kids-at-heart (like me) enjoyed it. First, they had a parade around while grabbing some bunch of goodies from the workstations. Then they had a little program with games and trivias. And the most exciting part of the event is JOLLIBEE! Who wouldn't be happy to see him? Hahahahah My colleagues and I did enjoy Jollibee while he was dancing Twerk It Like Miley. After the program, it's eating time! (for the kids only) While they were busy eating, we (as well) busied ourselves with the photo booth. 

Yeah, we took a lot of pictures. :D :D :D

A fun day it is! Plus, a matching shirt (Spongebob) with my close friends at work. HAHAHAH

Thanks IBM for letting me experience Trick or Treat. My tummy is full of sweets (though it's for the kids, I grabbed a lot for myself hahaha)

     I have missed 3 episodes already. Poor me. Live streaming went offline everytime I watched ALDUB. (╥︣﹏᷅╥)

2. WORK. WORK. WORK. 

     Work has been a lot busier than before. Lots of backlog were in progress. Plus, I got some Career Framework (for promotion) and online trainings (for documentation) to work on. I can do this. (ง︡'-'︠)ง

3. SALON MAKE OVER

     My hair's not cooperating with me for the past few days. And I badly want to have it cut (those damaged hair). Plus, my nails need some love. Time, where art thou? 

4. 13TH MONTH! \ (•◡•) /

     This is the happiest thing I've been thinking. :) 2 weeks more and I'm a one-day millionaire! (Just joking) I'm giving some to my parents and will be keeping some for Christmas. I've been thinking to buy a 7ft. Christmas tree (but my parents don't want a big one). To-buy list is a bit long. *giggles*

5. WHAT TO BLOG. WHAT TO BLOG. WHAT TO BLOG. 

     Actually, I got many ideas to blog about. But, time is my enemy. And my mind. :( It's not letting me to write. Oh, pleaseeeee MIND, WORK NOW! 

6. ROOM MAKE OVER (✿◠‿◠) 

     It's been 3 weeks since we've moved in to a new house (details will be to follow) and I still have boxes to arranged (just some stuffs and books). Can we fast forward to Christmas break???? 

7. EBOOKS

     My long list for October is barely untouched (just 3 books were finished). I was stuck with the series Shatter Me. I don't think I will ever have the heart to read you, so I'll just have to pend you, girl. ≧◠‿◠≦✌

Lastly,

8. MOVING ON. ( ◡́.◡̀)

     So many to say but I will sa tamang panahon. 

For a month of being hiatus, I am now back. I was a bit stressed out from work. Even personal issues were having a battle against me. I also got no hp to post on my blog. All the inspiration seemed to vanish. And I was a lifeless soul dragging myself to live everyday (chos!). 

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I have been feeling off for a a week or two already. I lost energy doing my job. I got no inspiration writing. I don't even want to go to office anymore (thank God for the Work-At-Home privilege in our company). Some thing have been off and I just can't seem to fathom how the heck did this happen.

Just the other week I got all the energy to work all the stuff. I got everything listed. And all of a sudden, pooof! It became a Coco Crunch. :P Just joking. All of a sudden, I started the week dragging my feet back to my bed. No, I'm not busy. I think just lazy. I think I just lost all the desires to work.   -_- 

I just had thing about my energy to go on it's negative level which I don't know the reason behind. I just felt that my work became so dragging. My workmates made me their feast for jokes. Every little thing at work crumbled by the time I started my day. And I had this tendency to lose the devotion for work on the spur of the moment. That's why I've been job hoping. Workplace and workmates are my vital factor for staying in the job. And now, I just can't lighten it all up. 

I think I just knew the reason behind this (while I was typing). But it made no difference. Work is still tedious. People are bit a insulting. I did good. I know I did. But.. I don't know. Just need a little magic to turn my day again. :((

If they can do it, I can too :) Fighting ^^

It's another start of the week and it's always Monday blues. (╥︣﹏᷅╥) 

This week I kick-off this week by stopping procrastination (which I do often). I got lots of tasks to do but I am unable to finish things before deadline (which has been my goal). We're using agile in our team and this week will be another iteration (it usually runs for just a month). I'm glad I was able to finish the tasks set to me before the day of the reflection and another iteration.

We will also be having a Karaoke Star activity (which happen every month and is organized by Yours Truly ٩(˘◡˘)۶). This Karaoke Star started last month and many people joined our activity and the highest score was 98 ( I was able to do 99, but I am not allowed to be a contestant (╥︣﹏᷅╥) Take note: We're using magic sing. hehe). 

And the happiest thing that will happen this week iiisssssss. PAYDAY \ (•◡•) / (wotwot!) What could be more fabulous? ( ^◡^)/

Here's my facebook profile picture. Just had the energy to change it. I was planning to change it once I have a picture with the sea ( again. Yes, for the love of the sea! ♥) Plus a caption, an empowering one I got from google. 

Have an amazing week! 👍(◠‿< )

I enjoy doing weird and new things. And even though things are not likable or something embarrassing. I have my own list of guilty pleasure. 

Guilty pleasure, according to my extensive research, is something you are embarrassed to like. It is something it makes you feel good but also feels guilty about it. It can be a thing or an activity that a person enjoys but it is believed that is incorrect or improper. 

In Philippines, the rainy season starts in June and lasts until October. This is the time of the year when rains are expected more. And this season is also called (by some) the cuddle weather.

Cuddle weather is the perfect weather when you want to snuggle up with someone under those thick blankets. Or get lazy getting up and enjoy the cold weather. Or get dressed in your sweatpants and have a nice cup of tea. Or enjoy movies with friends with a pair of hot chocolate and chips.

For me, cuddle weather is a cold weather. A gloomy one. A weather when you only can think of sadness. Sometimes, I can say that the sky is crying because I am too. The raining part is when I can think of the quote, "I like walking in the rain because no one can see me crying". It's the kind of weather that I wanted to be alone. It is never a cuddle weather for me. I only want my bed, my blanket and my pillows in my own invisible world. (I still wish I have someone to cuddle with hihi)

Whether it is a cuddle weather or a gloomy weather, it still bring comfort. The comfort of the coldness of the weather. The comfort of cuddling. The comfort of the rain. How it falls and how it sounds. The happy part there is after the rain there will always be a rainbow. And I do love rainbows. 

HAPPY CUDDLING ❤ 

I just turn another page of my beautiful, exciting and amazing book of life. And what I am feeling is better and great! Lately, there were some (adult) things that has been bugging my life lately and I am kinda on the process of making self-realizations and some self-improvements.

For the past 21 years, I am most content of what I have achieved in life. However, while making these self realizations, I came to the point that my life is living only in it's circle mark. Yeah, I am not yet living my life out of the box. I am still at the same place, since I opened my eyes to reality. I am still unable to travel even on the outskirts of the province. I am unable to make some new experiences and meet a lot of people. I am the same me with more experience and still in the line. 

So, marking my 22 years of existence, here's what I want for myself...

I want to be able to make more and more friends. Yeah, I'm not really good in conversing especially to strangers. Maybe, I can talk about small and simple talks like my name, my job, my ambitions, goal or even hobbies. But I can't do more than that. I want to be able to talk meaningful and be able to touch lives at the same time.

I want to continue my volunteering days. When I was in college, I do volunteer works as a facilitator in our school. It stopped when our group parted. I may not have the great money and luxury life, but what I can offer is my willingness to service people. 

I want to be independent and be able to go out on my own. I am used to having friends beside me and I can't even go on a trip by myself. I love my friends, but I guess I need to trust myself more and have more courage.

I want to continue learning. Knowledge is but an unending piece of information. Maybe I can do Masters or Doctorate. Maybe I can learn more language (programming language) or even do another field in relation to technology. Maybe I can do coffee making or baking. Yeah, the list is endless and I want to make it happen.

And lastly, I want to be more than who I am. The measure of success is not on the position you attain, nor the salary you make. Success for me is being greater than who you are. The door for self-improvements is 24/7 open. I know I can do better. I know I can be the best. Also, being greater also means being happy, contented and satisfied! That means a job well done. 

And to make this wish come true, I just need those sugar, spice and everything nice. :) 

FIGHTING! 

and his eyes were full of tears.

"After all this time?"

"Always," said Snape.” 

This week was a really stressful week. (I think all my weeks are really stressful.)

When we have problems, we tend to be down and be sad. We lose our energy because we keep our thinking about that problem. Sometimes, we disregard getting happy because we still have some problems that we worry a lot. 

This time, I had a lot of problems that I think about everyday. Sometimes, I cry in the middle of the night thinking of all those things. I am thinking of giving up. But then, I remembered what Bob Marley said, "Don't worry. Be happy." I was really struck when I looked at those random happy pictures I saw on the internet. It made me realized that I am the one who's hurting myself. I am the one who make things MORE complicated. I am the ONLY one who's MORE affected about these things. Then I ask myself, "Why worry?" Yeah, why worry? I'm not the only one who is having this problem. I'm not the only who's dealing with this one. Maybe, just maybe, more people who are happy are experiencing big problems than me who is sad.

All the problems in this world has it's own solution. If it isn't solve yet, then continue dealing with it. If I will worry about it, I make it double. I am bringing more problem to myself. I should be happy. I must be happy. I will be happy dealing with all these things.

FIGHTING! :)

Feeling tired even though I didn't do anything. 

This is another worst scenario in my life. 

You're wasting your money. 

You enjoy listening to their conversations. 

You think bitterly because they have things which you don't have. 

You're jealous because you think they are blessed than you.